Homesick

I'm not sure if it is because I now have a daughter or if it is just that enough time has passed to make me homesick, but man... I just want to go home. I want Liara to experience all that the US has to offer. I want her to be close to family on holidays so we can all get together and celebrate as a huge family. I want it to be easier for me to go back to work, simply because I can find something there that I can do with her (it's really difficult to take care of other children here... there's a lot of hoops you have to jump through). I want to have the convenience of the US back.

I've been irritated lately by all sorts of things here that wouldn't happen at home. For example- we moved into another house in February and filled up the kerosene tank (for heating the radiators since the houses here don't have central heating). Since the middle of February, we've now gone through 1,000 liters of fuel. 1,000 liters. Now, our house is little. This shouldn't be happening. The last time we filled up, it only lasted 37 days (so it's using a liter and a half of fuel PER HOUR, as we only kept it on 8 hours a day and put in 500 liters). This is absurd, especially considering the cost of kerosene lately (this fill up of 500 liters cost us 250 pounds!). Yes, I know that air conditioning/heating is high in Houston too... but even in the dead of summer we never spent 250 a month and our house was about 3 times the size of this one. Ugh.

I also want Liara to be able to be around the family... my sister and Nic's sister (and their families) have yet to meet our little girl and it's killing me. While the parents have all made it over now, our siblings still don't know how absolutely wonderful she is. Well, they hear me talk about her all the time, but it's not the same. I miss our friends in the US too... it sucks that we never get to see them.

I think the trip home in August (WE GET TO GO HOME!!!) has me even more homesick, simply because it isn't time yet. We're going to get to spend like 6 days in Houston and 7 days in Olympia. I can't wait! I've been dreaming and planning for like the last 2 months for this trip. I'm ready for it to be August already. I'm not looking forward to the trip home though, I'm sure that'll be loads of fun with Li (she'll be 6 1/2 months and I doubt she'll want to sit in my lap for 14 hours).

Anyway... enough of me moping about. We'll move back eventually, just not soon enough.

I'm off to do the dishes, put the laundry away and then hit the sack. Liara went to bed early tonight so she'll probably wake up a little early too. Just a guess ;) G'night!