Friday, 20 July 2012

Aspirations

Well, I've made some progress in reaching my own personal goals.  I've filled out my FAFSA and signed up to register for some classes at the local community college so that I'm all set to apply to nursing school come December.  I have been looking at becoming a midwife for a while now (I think I posted about it a while back) and have decided to go ahead and become an RN first, then work on getting my Nurse Midwife qualifications.  There are several ways to go about doing that and I've looked into all of them.  I am really hoping to get accepted into the Bacc2 program through UTHSC (UT Health and Science Center) here in Houston, although I will probably apply to the one at UTMB (UT Medical Branch) as well.  Both are HIGHLY regarded and I'm just hoping I have what it takes to get in.  The accelerated program is 15 months or so long and is for students who are looking to get a bachelor's degree in Nursing and already have a bachelor's degree in a different field.  This works for me and I save myself some time and money since I don't have to stay in the program the usual 4 years thanks to my degree.  They require you to have 60 credit hours in particular classes, all of which I have except for 6 classes worth (24 hours).  I still have to take Growth & Development (through the lifespan... I've taken a Child Development class, but it doesn't cover adults, obviously), Intro to Philosophy (I chose to take a religion class at UH instead), Human Anatomy & Physiology (I'm hoping I still remember some of this from the Pre-AP course in high school but I'm not holding my breath), Microbiology (I stopped at regular ol' Biology) and Nutrition.  I can apply to the Bacc2 program once I have at least 40 of the required hours complete, so hopefully I can apply in December for entry in Summer 2013, but we'll see.  I'm going to play it by ear and see how it goes.  My GPA is high enough , but it could use a boost in the Math and Sciences area so hopefully this will help me out.

I'm really excited and nervous about it.  I LOVE school.  I always have.  I can't wait to be a student again and am really looking forward to it, but I'm nervous about how I'm going to fit it all in.  The pre-req classes that I'm taking before I start the program are mostly online (the labs aren't, but everything else is), which is good since I can do it while the girls are sleeping/when Nic is home to help me out, but I am going to have to keep my grades up so my GPA doesn't fall below the acceptance point.  Then, once (IF) I'm accepted to the program, it's a crazy busy 15 months until I graduate again and am able to get to work.  They don't allow you to work during that time (for good reason), so we're going to have to pay for childcare as an added expense since I'll have to attend my clinic rotations and go to class at that point.  I think it'll all be worth it, but it's just a scary thing to think about.  I'm more nervous for how the girls are going to be than myself though.  They are used to staying home with me all the time and it's going to be a massive change.  I think I may enroll them in a Mother's Day Out program just to get them used to it.  I asked Liara if she wanted to go to school and she says yes, so that's a good thing.  She even grabbed her backpack and filled it with toys last time.  Maybe she's ready.  What's good is that Amaya will be done breastfeeding by the time the program starts, so that's one less thing I'll have to worry about.  It'll be ok.  I just need to remember I'm doing this for me AND for them.  I want my girls to see that you can do whatever you set your mind to and that you don't just have to be ONE thing.  I CAN do this.  I need to remind myself how good it'll be to be able to tell my girls, "I have two beautiful, well-rounded children, a nice home, a great marriage, two degrees and a reliable and meaningful career... all because of dedication, hard work, and love".  I want to show them that if you have a dream and a desire to do something different, you CAN do it and should.  Anything is possible.

I may just have to make myself a list of inspiration quotes and plaster them on my wall so I can remind myself every day of just what I am capable of.

I have the desire to care for others, I have the need to help other people, I have extra amounts of love and compassion to share.  I'm ready.

Ok... on to other things.  Amaya is getting so big!  She is bound and determined to do everything before Liara did.  She's pulling up on everything like a boss and the other day she managed to let go and stand on her own two feet for about 5 seconds before falling.  I have to keep reminding her that she's barely 7 months and to slow her cute little booty down!  Liara is becoming quite independent lately and I'm loving it.  She wants to help do everything (or do it on her own), from making her own chocolate milk to getting the mail, to picking up her toys before bedtime.  She is too cute.  I adore my children.

Nic has been working up a storm and I'm so proud of him.  He's such a wonderful man and I'm so blessed to have him by my side.  He came home at 10 am yesterday from work because we had a water line break and he fixed it all by himself by 3 pm, then went back to work.  He had a dinner meeting with Bob and James at 7 and so he went to that and didn't get home until about 10 pm.  Bless his heart, he's tired, but he still stays up for me so that we can at least visit a little or watch an episode of something together.  It means a lot to me, I know he's exhausted.

Anyway, I need to clean my house a little before the girls wake up from their naps... I hope everyone is having a wonderful day!

3 comments:

B said...

So proud of you, Jen! I love being a student as well, though I can't imagine it now :) Best of luck - you'll do great!!

Nic and Jen said...

Thanks B! I appreciate your support, it really does mean a lot to me. There are so many naysayers out there it's nice to have some positivity out there! I appreciate it!

Nic and Jen said...

Thanks B! I appreciate your support, it really does mean a lot to me. There are so many naysayers out there it's nice to have some positivity out there! I appreciate it!